Wow. It's finally here. My baby girl has turned one year old. At 12:42am exactly a year ago, at just 2lb 12oz, my baby-girl took her first breath in the outside world. I still can't believe it. And I'm surprised at how emotionally charged today is. I'm happy and sad at the same time. It's really weird. I think it partially has to do with her being a preemie. There is just something about reliving "that day". I'm tearing up left and right and just hope I can keep myself together for her party! Her birthday is not suppose to be for another two month. To be honest her birthday was the worst & scariest day of my life. It's the day we nearly lost her and me. I got rushed into an emergency C section, not knowing if she would be OK. I remember waking up in sheer panic wanting to know if she was alright. Just a scary scary day. The next few days were a blur, I was on so many drugs. Two days later I met my princess and things felt a little better. I remember seeing her for the first time. I could not believe how tiny she was. I got to hold her and she was light as feather! Skinny tiny little thing. I felt very guilty and angry for months for not being able to carry her full term. What was wrong with me and why didn't my body work the way it's suppose to? I googled till the cows came home. Researching and trying to find out what I did wrong, always coming up empty handed. I wanted to find answers and a cause. But in reality it's just one of those things. Something went wrong somewhere and I will never get a cause or reason. As my Dr. put it is just something random. My placenta came back fine, I have no clotting disease, everything was seemingly fine. A year full of ups and down, many challenges, but indeed a very happy ending. We have a beautiful 1 year old, who is super healthy, small but full of energy and beautiful smiles. Gosh we are so so lucky. I thought long and hard about what to write but I think there is nothing more telling than pictures. So here is our first year in pictures! Happy Birthday my sweet little princess! Mommy and daddy love you more than anything in this world!